{"id":410,"date":"2026-01-17T02:09:13","date_gmt":"2026-01-17T01:09:13","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/?p=410"},"modified":"2026-05-24T22:09:08","modified_gmt":"2026-05-24T20:09:08","slug":"learning-to-love-while-carrying-wounds","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/learning-to-love-while-carrying-wounds\/","title":{"rendered":"Learning to Love Anyway"},"content":{"rendered":"

I realize now that I was not always good at loving, nor at allowing myself to receive it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sometimes, all I knew how to show were the wounds I was still carrying.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I was still learning what love meant.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Looking back, I understand that the way I saw love did not start in my relationships \u2014
it started much earlier.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

In my childhood.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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A version of me that was still learning what love meant.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I look at this photo, I don\u2019t see someone who understood love \u2014
I see someone who was trying to feel it in any way he could.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Back then, I didn\u2019t fully understand love,
but I was still searching for it in everything.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sometimes through attention.
Sometimes in too being seen.
Sometimes in moments that felt like warmth, even if they did not last.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Without realizing it, I carried that understanding into my relationships.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I thought love was something you chase,
something you prove,
something you hold on to tightly so it doesn\u2019t leave.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But when I look at my actions, I see something different.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It was not always love.
Sometimes, it was fear.
Sometimes, it was the need to feel seen.
Sometimes, it was the echo of something I never fully received.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When you are still healing,
you don\u2019t just love \u2014
you react from what shaped you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And I was shaped long before I understood it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That is where the confusion came from.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not because love is complicated,
but because I was trying to love while still carrying parts of myself I had not yet faced.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Over time, I began to see something clearly:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Love is not something you chase.
And it is not something that fixes what is broken inside you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It is something you learn to meet,
once you begin to understand yourself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And maybe that is what I was really learning all along.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not just how to love someone else \u2014
but how to understand the version of me that never learned it properly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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This painting felt like releasing a part of me that was never fully seen.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

In the end, I began to understand something simple:
not everything that feels like attention is love.
And not everything that feels like love is meant to stay.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Some reflections stay as words.
Others become something you can carry.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I realize now that I was not always good at loving, nor at allowing myself to receive it. Sometimes, all I knew how to show were the wounds I was still carrying. I was still learning what love meant. Looking back, I understand that the way I saw love did not start in my relationships […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[15],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-410","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-life-reflections"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/410","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=410"}],"version-history":[{"count":18,"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/410\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1012,"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/410\/revisions\/1012"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=410"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=410"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lidacraft.se\/sv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=410"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}